Even since writing this little bit, I have two kids that should be napping. One already bonked her head on the side of her crib so I had to go and comfort her, and the other one was screaming for water, after about 45 minutes of pretending the side of his crib is a drum set. (I'm slowly trying to accept the reality that my three year old doesn't nap any more but for now he at least goes in his crib for quiet time... but I'm thinking I should call it anything else but quiet.) Oh, and I'm preparing dinner because it's so much easier to do while they in in bed. So this is supposedly "my time", but as you can see...
Lately I've felt really in need of my own quiet time. A time just to clear my head, to pray, to focus,etc. But as many of you full time stay at home moms know- there's a part of my brain that is always on alert. Even during nap time (or should I say "nap" time) or nighttime, just knowing that at any moment I may be needed can feel overwhelming to me at times.
However I have discovered something. I have two choices. I can break down, call my husband at work or some friends and share how weak I am, and complain that "I just can't do this today", and say how trapped and overwhelmed I feel, or I can take the Word of God and say "I can do this. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. His grace is sufficient for me, His power is made perfect in my weakness." I can fall apart, or draw on the Holy Spirit to keep me together.
The Bible says let the weak say 'I am strong', and let the poor say 'I am rich'. This is not denial, but it is declaring a spiritual truth. And when this becomes our response- when we really decide- 'hey, I'm going to take this promise, make it mine and fight to experience this'- we will benefit! Because guess what? For those who choose to believe it, it will become your reality. His grace IS sufficient. You CAN do all things through Christ who gives you strength. This is not an automatic thing, it's a promise we can walk in if we renew our minds and take it by faith.
I created this painting as a reminder of this precious truth. This truth that is vital to me, and I'm sure many others. This is how I get through my days, with victory and joy. This is how I lift myself out of the pity party sometimes my flesh wants to throw. This is my promise, and when I take it by faith, it becomes my reality.