A question most successful people are asked is "how do you find balance?" This is also a question people ask those who seem to be busy, have a lot on their plate, have children, who are in the ministry or who have started their own businesses. It's a question I want to ask other moms, other artists and desire to answer myself one of these days. This question is constantly in the back of my mind and I feel like in some ways has become my own personal mission in life to answer. (True real life story- picture me at the moment sitting on the floor in my pj's with my 8 month old crawling on me and crying for my attention, with my notebook and pen raised up to to the sky as I desperately am writing down these thoughts at the moment.)
What is it, how do I get it?
Something that honestly encouraged me the other day was an interview I heard of a woman who is a single mom of about 13 children who also happens to have a successful radio career. She was asked how she finds balance. And her answer? She laughed and said "there's no such thing as balance". I think in that moment I was so sad and so happy at the same time!
A glimpse into my life a little- I am one of those people who wants to have complete order and cleanliness, where everything is put away, we are all on a schedule, I have every day divided into certain times to do things, and I get a little bit of everything done each day. I want to feel when I go to bed at night, productive and fruitful in every area of my life. I want to go to bed with the house immaculate, no laundry that needs to be cleaned or folded, a new piece of art created, and knowing that my children had a new experience or learned something by the end of that day. That's what I want.... but that is definitely not my experience up into this point! I have had to let go of my own expectations a little (maybe a LOT), and learn to find balance in the unbalanced season of life I am in!
When I think of balance at this time in my life, I have to define it differently than what I ultimately want. I realize that "balance" is a state of mind, it's a place of peace in my soul that only God can give. Did you know that in Christ our spirits are perfect? We have true peace, true joy, true "balance"? I realize that even when my house is a mess, or I didn't get what I wanted done for the day, I can find peace in my heart through trusting the Lord with my life, my days, my fruitfulness.
"He who DWELLS in the secret place of the Most High shall REST in the shadow of the Almighty." Psalm 91: 1 (emphasis mine). This is how I find balance. And I'll be honest, even this part of my life looks different right now.... I'm not spending 2 hours of quiet time with the Lord a day... I'm thinking of the things of God and Bible verses as I do dishes, clean up toys, grocery shop, play with my kids. I envision my living room as under God's wings. I abide with my family in our mostly messy house...(that I desperately try and keep clean) knowing that what makes it beautiful is His Presence. We sing songs of Joy, we claim healing over the times I trip over toys, we pray over our messy meal times.
I'm definitely not saying I have this unbalanced/balanced way of living figured out. I'm not saying that just yesterday I didn't almost have a little breakdown over being so disorganized that I couldn't do art, or that I'm still not striving for a better system in my life, but I am saying, by God's grace, I'm learning to embrace the times and seasons, the clean times and the messy times. The art times and the non art times. I'm learning that as I continue to seek for my definition of balance, I can at least experience peace in my heart... even when I have to dig a little for it!
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